(Source: fantasyscapes)
Bliss.
listening to electric tears simultaneously with rainy mood makes me reflect and think about how my life has been. how i’ve been detached to the fun side of life (im not even aware that i havent been to the beach for 2 years) ive lost communication with myself. i didnt have time to have my thoughts put in writing. my ever-so-expressive heart became passive. But right now, through this song and the mood that it’s giving me, i feel emotions coming out. it makes me feel happy. the last time i felt like this was when i was in the province. i feel renewed; i feel…bliss and fulfillment. i can’t explain what exactly i’m feeling—its just….that. i just know that i’m enjoying it right now. i’ve been so consumed with the hustle and bustle of the metro that i forgot what it’s like to have some time to just be me. when i was 14 years old, my cousins and i went to subic and stayed there for 4 days. we went there to swim and just bond together. at night, id go the shore by myself and just imagine things. what if this or that happened? what if my crush were there? what if my life were different? i’m in complete awe of nature. the stars, the distant mountains, the never ending sea, the subtle sound of the waves and the insects—everything just felt so magical. the water, the moonlight, the music, the nice feel of the sand under my feet and the cool breeze blowing on my face. i’d do the same thing in the morning, id get up @ about 5am, go to the shore and watch the sun rise. i wanted my life to stay that way. but then, all good things must come to an end. and here i am now, hoping that those days would come again, wanting to revel in that feeling all over again. well, all i could do now is to sit here and be contented with this song. i’d consider this the “synthetic” version of the “real” thing. it works.
WHY???
Sometimes i wish you’re not as annoying as you are right now. People like you reminds me of how cruel this world can be! :| |
